Week 8 Weigh-In

Well, I flopped. Last week was just a train wreck for me! The hubby was on vacation, which was great, but it also meant that I was much busier than normal. The result? Continually making the wrong, albeit easy, food choices - which left me in a constant state of hunger. I finally caved in last night and did some major emotional eating. Enough that what was a .5 pound loss for the week turned into me breaking dead even.

I know, I know, it could have been much worse. I could have gained. I could be back over 200, instead of still below it. I'm trying hard not to beat myself up over it, but I'm having a hard time of it, so I'm going to list the positives of my self-imposed plateau.

1. I managed to go on vacation and NOT gain weight. I made the best choices available during the trip.
2. I got to spend 10 days of quality time with my hubby and accomplish a lot of the outside work we needed to get done.
3. I got to watch the Cincinnati Reds thrash the NY Mets - all from 200 feet behind home plate!
4. I'm still a heck of a lot healthier than I was 8 weeks ago!

There. Amazingly enough I feel better now. Now to get back to it and do this thing right! Goals for the week are going to be to have fun with the boys, who are on spring break; drink plenty of water, which I've been doing great on but want to continue; LOSE some weight, instead of staying the same; and do my Tai Chi at least 3 times.

One little thing - I met a goal last week! I managed to wean myself away from sugar in my coffee, sticking to just a bit of non-dairy creamer. Go me!!

Food Journal (3/24/2009)

Breakfast (5)
1 bowl maple & brown sugar Cream of Wheat
3 egg whites
8 oz. coffee
2 Tbsp. non-dairy creamer
2 tsp. sugar

Lunch (7)
Weight Watcher's Smart Ones Pepper Steak
1 1/2 cups salad
2 Tbsp. light ranch dressing

Dinner (11)
2 turkey smoked sausages
1 cup sauerkraut
1/2 cup baked beans
10 tater tots

Evening Snack (5)
10 tater tots
8 oz. coffee
2 Tbsp. non-dairy creamer
2 tsp. sugar

I went 2 points over, because of the whole tater tot thing again. *hangs head in shame* I think I'm going to have to quit making tater tots - they appear to be my weakness!

Food Journal (3/12/2009)

Let me start of with a SQUEEful little yell, because I am wearing my skinny jeans today - AND THEY ARE LOOSE!! Insert happy dance here. What a feeling, this makes it all just that much more worth it, you know?

Okay, so on to yesterday's food journal. I must admit, the stress of yesterday caught up with me last night and I nommed a handful of tater tots. While I totally hang my head in shame, I also realize that it's not a setback. I did it, I felt guilty, I'll think twice about doing it again. Period. No sense crying over spilled milk.

Breakfast (5)
3 egg whites
1 slice of low sodium turkey bacon
1 cup cantaloupe
8 oz. coffee
2 Tbsp. non-dairy creamer
2 tsp. sugar

Lunch (7)
Weight Watcher's Smart One's Broccoli and Cheddar Roasted Potatoes
1 Weight Watcher's yogurt
1 apple

Afternoon Snack (4)
1/4 cup guacamole
100 Calorie Snack Pack Sun Chips

Dinner (6)
Turkey Burger with light garlic mayo

Evening Snack (4)
100 Calorie Snack Pack Fudge Stripes
8 oz. coffee
2 Tbsp. non-dairy creamer
2 tsp. sugar

Faux Pas (4)
Tater tots

One goal met, one failure

And of course I'm focusing on the failure. The fact that I didn't get around to doing my Tai Chi workout. Yes, I got 10 loads of laundry done. Yes, I cooked chicken enchiladas and refried beans for the guys. Yes, I got the bathtub scrubbed to a shine. Yes, I got quite a bit of work done on my grandmother's bed jacket.

I didn't, however, accomplish the one thing that I wanted to do that was for me. Therein lies the problem. I have no problem pushing my nose to the grindstone when it comes to doing things for others. It's all too easy for me to look past what I wanted to do for me, though. To ignore it and not get it done. Then I'm left all teary, bleary and defeated and everyone else is happy. This is the balance issue that I'm facing. I just can't seem to figure how to matter to myself. How to make time to do the things that are important for me and ONLY me.

If anyone out there has any helpful hints - please share them. I'm at a loss.